Round We Go!

Time: 02:18 pm
Current mood: Down
Listening to: Where I End And You Begin by Radiohead

I believe that I have friends. But any of them can turn into an enemy within a second.

My emotions change faster than the weather.

The good part is there’s no drama around it. I don't have any self-pity or don't feel I am being a victim.

I Can't Make It

Time: 09:57 am
Current mood: Okay
Listening to: Yellow by Jem

The strength I have to keep myself smiling is fading away.

Most days I wish I could go to sleep and never wake up.

How can I slow down my thoughts?

Shadows

Time: 09:57 pm
Current mood: Okay
Listening to: This Could Be My Last Day by Duke Shadows

I'm sentenced to life and the prison is my mind. The life's running away leaving me way behind.

I'm burning inside alone and the layers of life is slowly peeling away.

I'm almost gone with just a plastic smile on my face.

Run

Time: 06:02 pm
Current mood: Sad
Listening to: Saving by Thirteen Senses

I am floating up and down.

I just wanna go far far away.

All I want is an ounce of peace and hope that my smile will come back just like it used to be.

The Show Must Go On!

Time: 02:55 pm
Current mood: Melancholy
Listening to: Burning by Vijay Kishore

If only I was easier to understand.

The problem is nothing's gonna change my mind, so how can I get any help?

Hope?

Can't Hold On

Time: 08:39 pm
Current mood: Rockbottom
Listening to: To Build A Home by The Cinematic Orchestra


Mostly I experience such sadness that my soul ventures in to places no one should go.

There are emotions, then there are "emotions".

My emotions are so strong that ending my life becomes the only way my mind can understand releasing them.

The Reason Why

Time: 07:51 pm
Current mood: Very Sad
Listening to: Why Does It Always Rain On Me? by Travis

If I try to let somebody know how I am feeling, I just know they will tell me that I am too self-involved or being silly.

I agree, but then again…

I’m depressed.

Painfully Hopeful!

Time: 08:15 pm
Current mood: Sad
Listening to: Runaway Train by Soul Asylum


My state of mind is not a fashion statement.

It is just what it is to live in between the extremes.

Being sad is very, very different. It doesn't have a true focus.

I need to deal with disappointments in a reasonable and realistic way.

Why not now?

Time: 11:33 pm
Current mood: Rockbottom
Listening to: Self-Torture by Andrew Bird

I am afraid to open the door, afraid to answer the phone.

I feel anxious today.

I know that this illness will kill me someday, but I don't want it to be now.