Time: 09:36 pm
Current mood: Somewhere out there
Listening to: In The Ghetto by Elvis Preseley
I wrote an ad called ‘Life happens’.
Everyday is a groundhog day.
And everyday I want to go to bed feeling better than when I woke up.
Nothing to look forward to.
Tuesday, 24 March 2009
Question?
Time: 02:55 pm
Current mood: Given Up
Listening to: This Could Be My Last Day by Duke Special
I don't understand myself at all, for I really want to do what is right, but I don't do it. I’m at war with my mind.
I don’t know what is legitimate, and what’s delusional anymore.
But then there are times when I think I’m ill because of the kink in my brain.
There’s got to be an answer somewhere.
Current mood: Given Up
Listening to: This Could Be My Last Day by Duke Special
I don't understand myself at all, for I really want to do what is right, but I don't do it. I’m at war with my mind.
I don’t know what is legitimate, and what’s delusional anymore.
But then there are times when I think I’m ill because of the kink in my brain.
There’s got to be an answer somewhere.
Now and Then
Time: 12:22 pm
Current mood: Getting there but not giving up
Listening to: Dark Road by Richard Hawley
I feel like I was more loveable before I got into my mid 20's.
Then my mood wasn't quite as up and down as it is now. Now I made myself more unlikable, unlovable.
I hope there’s a better tomorrow for me.
Current mood: Getting there but not giving up
Listening to: Dark Road by Richard Hawley
I feel like I was more loveable before I got into my mid 20's.
Then my mood wasn't quite as up and down as it is now. Now I made myself more unlikable, unlovable.
I hope there’s a better tomorrow for me.
Monday, 23 March 2009
2+2 = 5
Time: 11:48 am
Current mood: Too sad to describe
Listening to: Girl From The Northern States by The Young Republic
I feel like I am trying to sail a boat in a hurricane.
Life is floating. Life needs a break — from me.
Thinking of suicide seems to have a calming effect.
How ironic?
Current mood: Too sad to describe
Listening to: Girl From The Northern States by The Young Republic
I feel like I am trying to sail a boat in a hurricane.
Life is floating. Life needs a break — from me.
Thinking of suicide seems to have a calming effect.
How ironic?
Wednesday, 4 March 2009
Mini me
Time: 12:10 pm
Current mood: Bouncing ball
Listening to: Lord, I'm Discouraged by The Hold Steady
Some compulsive thought in the back of my head can override my very essence at will.
I know there’s no greener grass than that on which I sit.
But that doesn’t stop this weird creature in my head from whispering at me almost constantly, “Get out, you have much bigger things to accomplish”.
But finding a place of real feeling is impossibly hard.
Current mood: Bouncing ball
Listening to: Lord, I'm Discouraged by The Hold Steady
Some compulsive thought in the back of my head can override my very essence at will.
I know there’s no greener grass than that on which I sit.
But that doesn’t stop this weird creature in my head from whispering at me almost constantly, “Get out, you have much bigger things to accomplish”.
But finding a place of real feeling is impossibly hard.
Monday, 2 March 2009
Sink or Swim!
Time: 11:40 pm
Current mood: Was okay 5 minutes ago, now very very sad
Listening to: Going to a Town by Rufus Wainwright
Is treading water really better than drowning?
Most mornings I feel as if i woke up from the wrong side of the bed.
My life is temperamental. When it's good, it's heavenly.
Current mood: Was okay 5 minutes ago, now very very sad
Listening to: Going to a Town by Rufus Wainwright
Is treading water really better than drowning?
Most mornings I feel as if i woke up from the wrong side of the bed.
My life is temperamental. When it's good, it's heavenly.
Sunday, 1 March 2009
Bullseye!
Time: 10:43 pm
Current mood: In between
Listening to: Hljomalind by Sigur Ros
Every time I think I have found a way to deal, life changes.
Unfortunately it is not so easy to get the genie back in the bottle.
I need to stay focussed.
Current mood: In between
Listening to: Hljomalind by Sigur Ros
Every time I think I have found a way to deal, life changes.
Unfortunately it is not so easy to get the genie back in the bottle.
I need to stay focussed.